I Didn’t Burn Anything!

Today, I put my housewife apron on. Figuratively. I don’t have an apron. Hmm, maybe I should add one to our wedding registry? Nah. Unless it’s monogrammed. Or has ruffles. Alright, enough of this.

I didn’t have to take as much pain meds today which was nice. The meds are making me sick. I’ve been relying mostly on my heating pad and ice pack. I’m feeling well enough to go back to work tomorrow! Finally.

I got a burst of energy during late afternoon and decided I needed to make cupcakes. My sugar levels were too high today so it would’ve been a little risky to have one, but I just love to bake even if I don’t eat the treats every time.

I made dark chocolate strawberry cupcakes. They looked pretty cute. I even put real strawberries on top (of most of them.)

Then for dinner, I kinda winged it. I didn’t follow a recipe or use Google at all to help me come up with something! I made teriyaki glazed salmon with brown rice and veggies. I didn’t burn anything or ruin any pots/pans. This is a big deal for me! Anyone who knows me knows that every time Audra hits the kitchen, something is bound to go wrong. Not today, my friends! And my food tasted quite good if I say so myself. I feel inspired to keep trying more complicated meals.

The cupcakes were not healthy but isn’t that the point of cupcakes? The salmon dish was healthy. It was under 500 calories and the salmon was only about 6g of carbs (I can have up to 60-75 grams of carbs per meal; I try to keep my carb count low though so my sugar levels don’t spike.) The trick to making this dish healthy is not using heavy oil to sauté or cook the ingredients, and don’t smother the whole thing in teriyaki sauce (it doesn’t taste as good when it’s drowned in sauce.) I just used a little bit of extra virgin olive oil to sauté the salmon in.

If anyone wants the recipe, let me know. It’s quite easy. You just have to heat up the veggies, cook the rice, and season/cook the salmon. Also, please give me suggestions on recipes to try!

Below are pictures of my housewife day.

Dark chocolate strawberry cupcakes

Teriyaki glazed salmon Dinner for two

 

I’m really bad at coming up with creative titles…OH WELL.

Yesterday I got a root canal. SO FUN. Vicodin has been my best friend the past 2 days except not really. It’s been making me so sick. But I’m feeling a little bit better…just waiting for this to be over. Sorry in advance for the quality of this post; pain meds always have a big affect on me. Anyways, that’s why I haven’t cooked anything the past 2 nights. I’ve been eating pretty much only liquid/squishy foods.

Tomorrow I’m planning to make some type of salmon dish to celebrate Brian’s first day back at work. He’s done so much for me these past 2 weeks and has come over every day to help me; the least I can do is make a big healthy dinner. 

The past few nights my sugar levels have been dropping very low in my sleep and it is easily the most terrifying feeling. I wake up delirious and unable to move, my heart rate is going crazy…it’s real scary. It’s been happening ever since last Thursday when the doctor increased my bedtime insulin injection. To hopefully balance it all out, I’ve been eating a bedtime snack and that’s been helping. Tonight it’s a healthy fruit bowl. 🙂 Peaches, nectarines, blueberries, strawberries, raspberries, and cherries. I wanted to add kiwi and apple but I ran out of room. I LOVE FRUIT. And yes, I know it has lots of natural sugar. But that’s the point. I’d rather be in the 100s-200s during the night instead of dropping to the 40s or 50s. 

Below is a picture of my fruit bowl (a.k.a. the only food I’ve “made” in the past 2 days) and I’ll post a picture/recipe of whatever I make tomorrow night, assuming I’m not too high on pain meds!

xoxo

Audge

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Turning over a new leaf

I don’t write on here enough, and I think it’s because I don’t necessarily have a specific focus or reason to write regularly. I’ve had several requests to turn my blog into a diabetic journal of sorts, posting recipes mostly. I think I will try this out and see how it goes.

Update on my condition:

Diabetes is totally manageable. When you know what you’re doing. Unfortunately, I do not know what I’m doing because there has been a major lack in diabetes education from my doctor. Since I was diagnosed in Alabama while visiting my family, and then I flew back up to Ohio a day later, there has been a lot of miscommunication between doctors and such. I also cannot find a diabetes education class in my area to go to until 3 weeks from now. My sugar levels have been either way too low (been in the 50s a lot this weekend) or way too high (hit 581 on Thursday night) because I just am unsure on how to handle this disease. On top of this, I also have an abscessed tooth (excruciatingly painful) which means I have a root canal scheduled for tomorrow. It is assumed by my doctor that my abscessed tooth infection is slightly affecting my sugar levels. After it’s taken care of, hopefully my levels will be easier to manage.

I am starting to learn a bit through trial and error.

I had an “emergency” appointment at the doctor last week because of my extreme mouth pain (from my abscessed tooth) and because of my super high sugar levels. There was one nurse at the office who was asking me questions that I couldn’t answer because no doctor has told me anything really. The doctor in Alabama and the doctor up here in Oxford both pretty much just explained what type 1 diabetes is and wrote me prescriptions for insulin. I’ve been given no information on how to adjust my diet, how to compensate with insulin…nothing. I’ve been so lost. This nurse at the doctors office was absolutely shocked that no one has told me important things to help myself; I’ve been putting myself in extreme danger without realizing it or knowing how to fix it. I was supposed to go to the ER the night my sugar was 581, but I didn’t know that it was that bad because no one told me what constitutes an emergency.

The nurse gave me a booklet about carbs, a bunch of awesome and helpful literature, and told me how many grams of carbs I should have a meal and how many calories I should eat a day. It took about 5 minutes. I am kinda angry that no doctor cared enough to take 5 minutes to help me. And don’t even get me started on how much I hate the insurance company right now; it baffles me that they won’t give me the medical supplies I need on a daily basis!

This nurse, Danielle, is a complete godsend. I feel a little bit more confident and this knowledge she provided me with is enough to tide me over until the diabetes education classes.

My family, friends, fiancé, and co-workers have been INCREDIBLE to me through this. I’ve been super bummed because I had to medically withdraw from my summer classes which means no more graduating early, and I’ve felt like such an inconvenience because I’ve had to miss work for appointments and days that I don’t feel good enough to move. These awesome people I’m surrounded with have been so patient, understanding, and helpful. I can’t ever express enough how much I appreciate everyone.

Every day, it gets better. Every week, I make progress. I’m getting there. I sure as hell won’t let this disease ruin my life. I’m gonna show diabetes who’s boss and use this trial to prove my strength. 

RECIPE TIME!!

Last week, Brian and I made a diabetes friendly margherita pizza. It was amazing. We made it two nights in a row for dinner! I’ve been asked multiple times for the recipe so here it is!

Ingredients: whole wheat pizza crust (1 package,) mozzarella cheese (use however much you’d like,) grape tomatoes (8-10 chopped,) minced garlic (or approx. 2-3 cloves,) extra virgin olive oil (2 tablespoons,) 1/4 cup chopped onion (optional,) chopped basil (1/4 cup,) salt and pepper (use however much you’d like.)

  1. Preheat the oven to 400 degrees F.
  2. Put the crust into a pizza pan, or a regular baking sheet if you don’t have a pizza pan. DO NOT put the crust directly on the oven rack; always use a pan.
  3.  Put 2 tablespoons of olive oil onto the crust and spread it around the whole crust. Salt and pepper on top of the oil (more pepper than salt.)
  4. Put it in the oven for approx. 7 minutes, or until top of crust is crispy.
  5. Take crust out of the oven; add chopped garlic onto crust.
  6. Chop mozzarella cheese into 1 inch circles. Place on crust.
  7. Place chopped grape tomatoes on crust wherever you see fit (you don’t want to cover the whole pizza; you want to still see some crust.)
  8. Optional: add chopped onion onto crust.
  9. Place back in oven for 8-10 minutes, or until cheese is fully melted and crust is cooked.
  10. Take out of oven; add basil on top.
  11. Cut and serve.

Let me know if you have questions…I’m not a recipe writer! It’s a very easy meal to make, and it’ll keep you full all night! It’s also healthy for you. Brian would like to mention that it would pair nice with an acidic white wine.

Below is a picture of the pizza. Let me know if you make it and what you think of it!

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With love and insulin…

Day 2 of being a diagnosed type 1 diabetic.

You know what? I know it’s going to be okay. Diabetes is totally manageable. Totally.

The reasons I am emotional about it go beyond that. I am emotional because 1. this is life-long. I never get a break. Every day for the rest of my life I have to give myself shots. Me! The girl who’s anxious around needles! Irony. 2. It is drastically going to impact Brian’s life, since he is my primary caregiver. He has to be prepared at every moment in case I go into a diabetic coma or insulin shock. 3. It will change my immediate family’s interactions and take emotional tolls on them. 4. It can impact my future children and grandchildren. 

Those last 3 reasons just tear me up.

I know it isn’t that bad, and that I’ll get used to it; it’s a lifestyle change. But it’s also a chronic illness, and that is a scary thing to me. Especially now that I’m living alone and have no idea about any of this stuff. Seriously. All the science and nutrition parts of it…I have no clue. I only know how to take my blood sugar and to give myself my insulin shots. 

I can deal with this. But I can’t deal with the fact that it is and will effect my family so much. That is what brings the tears on. Also, this hasn’t been easy to accept and deal with while Brian’s not in America and we can hardly talk. The stress of having to change our lives is just hanging over me.

But you know what else?

God planned this before I ever came to this earth. He knew I would have this illness for my whole life. And I’d like to believe that He thinks I’m strong enough to handle it. It’s difficult to be brave when there are so many unanswered questions and so much anxiety and emotion. But I am truly confident that God’s got this. He’ll walk beside me and rejoice on my good days, and He’ll carry me through my bad days. He will equip Brian and my family with the strength and patience they need in order to help me.

I know all these truths. It’s just hard to remember them and truly believe them right now. It’ll all work out. I’m just waiting for the moment that I can believe that to my core and hopefully then the tears will stop.